so its 1224 now, i've got photosynthseis and its evil action spectrums to conquer and i'm done for bio. then it's left to the ever lovable economics and why market has to fail. and not forgetting math... horrid math...

well lately i've been pretty jaded with the prospect of the upcoming commons; a hopeful chance to finally do well enough and make my parents happy, and have something to be happy about. yet my lazy self decides to sleep 12 hours each day, intermittant with the prospect to yahoo pool, good ol' remington steel and even people to share my 'woes' with on msn, which just seeks to undermine all that i'm aiming towards.

and did i mention i'm averaging at 5am everyday, with the quiet stillness 
and serenity of the night extremely welcoming with cary brothers playing in the back ground..

strangely the serenity and tranquility of the night has always appealed to me, the idea of you being up alone in the wee hours of the morning, with good indie/alternative/soft rock playing in the back ground (lifehouse and cary brothers have been very good company), intermittant with an ice cream break and even cup noodles when the need calls for it, all while enjoying the company of who ever's there online on msn (usually Milk heh).

and while the world just keeps spinning and spinning, it's all just so tempting to sit back, savour the moment of sorts and enjoy remy zero or even cold play, sipping a cup of hot milk tea or iced milo with everything just seemingly fading away into oblivion.

i guess i'm thankful of late, for all the wonderful people that have entered my life, the many friends made, 
5.5 deuteronomy 2007, the wonderful SMC (haha and a possible Beast of Baoshan).

but yet, the allure of yesteryear still lingers, the prospect of 'potential' the very prospect of it, 
the many new friendships forged then, 
which have since waned, gosh it would feel so good to go back to yesterday

and as reality comes crashing down, i guessed i never quite lived up to my 'potential', 
often as not dissapointing people, the many who believed in me (heh there were, a few at least.. i hope),

ah well, a new time has come in any case, as everything seems all so distant of late.