it's one of those times again those really deep deep contemplative times spent listening to deep deep stuff like lifehouse

some how you'd think that everything around you's one huge wreck, and you've changed so much that sometimes you wish someone would just give you a tight slap 

yet the very next day, you wake up acting like the same idiot you are, so that you can enjoy things to the fullest, or so you think. you lost all regard for things you once believed in, things you once held dear, of course justifying it by not wanting to get your heart broken again. or you're just too scared to get hurt or watch an ideal come crashing down.

haha or even better still, you become one of the very people you told yourself never to become, disregarding relationships, manipulating them all just for fun and laughter.

you wish you could turn back to the start and stop all this from happening

you're Walk's an utter mess, you know you should be concerned but you don't even give a hoot about it, better yet, you actually don't want to repair it

you pretend as though everything's ok, hypocritically providing help for others,

you tell yourself, you've got to change but wake up the very next day acting the complete retard you are

and you thing everything's just going to work out all right











you'd wish.